My Childhood - Past and Present

From the outside looking in my childhood rivaled all those shows from the 1950s. 2 loving parents, kids playing in the front and back yards, some of the kids belonged to my parents but some of them were neighbor kids. Up until I started with full time school my mother was a stay at home mom, and my father worked. Of course it wasn't picture perfect all the time. With 4 kids running around how on earth could it be? My brothers and I fought, my mother yelled, we even received spankings from time to time.

I remember weekends being the most fun, Mom drinking coffee and reading the paper, Dad and I would run out to LaCourt and buy Italian bread (and he'd always let me get a little treat as well) then we'd go home, and eat Italian bread and butter for breakfast. Then my brothers and I would watch TV til Mom chased us out of the house, or made us do our chores.

These memories came back to me today because Dan, Titania and I drove to South Carolina to spend Christmas with my parents and brother. This has seriously been an amazing weekend.

Being down here really makes me want to move down here.

As a kid my mother and I butted heads more often then not. If we weren't arguing about cleaning my room, it was brushing my hair or my clothing options etc. But now we've managed to transition into friends. I tell her almost everything, I talk to her almost every day either via text messages or phone calls. And being down here while its great to be here and be with my parents again, it makes me sad to know that tomorrow we need to head back home to NJ.

I've been talking to Dan about moving down here but usually in the back of my head it's always been there that if we couldn't move down here it wouldn't be the end of the world. Well being here has changed that.

I don't want to go home. I want to be here and know that I am home. I want to be able to call up my mom and make plans and 5 minutes later be at her house, or her at mine. I would love to just go out and look for a house right now but I know that is just not possible. Dan and I have commitments and responsibilities in NJ and moving down here just can't happen for at least a few more years.

But for right now I'm just going to enjoy what little time we have left here, before returning to real life!

Hope everyone had a great and safe Christmas, and Have a Safe and Happy New Year!